Robin, the Irishman, and a Crush...

Well, Well, it has been a couple of days, and I wish I could say things have slowed down, but that isn't the case.

It never fails that whenever I am not looking for men, they come out of the woodwork! "When it rains it pours," is ever accurate when it comes to me.

So, on Halloween I met this gorgeous man we will call Robin, because he was balsy enough to wear a Robin costume, and let me tell you, the man filled it OUT! Every muscle was visuable. YUM! That night we were flirting, but honestly, I was drunk, he was drunk, and all we did was exchange numbers. We texted for a couple of days, and finally on Thursday we decided to meet for dinner. Dinner...was awesome. He is so relaxed and beautiful, and smart and ambitious, and awesome! However, when dinner ended we pretty much just said our goodbyes and I wasn't sure where it was going...

Friday: My girl, India and I went to happy hour with some co-workers. One looks like a Gucci model, the other we'll call the Irishman. Backstory: The Irishman and I have known each other for 5 years. I worked at this company prior to him coming here, however, now he is a kind of a big wig. Pretty smart guy. moved up the latter pretty quickly and does very well for himself. Older, irish (obviously) and has bad luck with women. We have remained friends but never anything more. Needless to say, happy hour = drinks = sloppiness. So after talking, somehow it came out that he likes me?

Not really sure what to make of this information. I mean, I have always had a soft spot for the Irishman, but (again - what is it with me) we work together and that could be WAY too sticky. I think I need to stick with Robin, but I am not sure where that is going to go.

Saturday: I spent the entire day, hanging with blue eyes and spending quality time with my parents. It was honestly blissful. I totally needed it. Plus, I did get a text from Robin, but I am not sure where it is going. We may just end up being friends, or he may be just going very slow. Either way I adore talking with him and would love to see him again...

I am sure, another week, and more time will lead to more answers ;-)

HUMP DAY!!!

I am feeling so much better today! I took a deep breath, got some great advice from my favorite sag, and have decided the crush is not even worth a second look. Whatever happens with him and his girlfriend is between him. I am no longer letting it effect me. WOOT!



With that...



I wanted to share with you this amazing song Katelin shared with me from Rob Pattenson. Holy Mother! The man is hot AND can sing. Lord, find me one of him!!! YUM!



Enjoy!

I just puked a little...

I was trying to be supportive and ask the crush when his girlfriend comes in this weekend, and he, being ever so honest and up-front, decides to divulge details about what they are doing.

I seriously just puked a little in my mouth...

What the hell was I thinking? I do not want to know about this, at all!

UGH! Sometimes I am in idiot.

Halloweekend

This weekend was cr-az-y!!! Don't know if it was a good crazy or a bad crazy, but it was just madness.

Friday night I hung out with the crush for a little bit, drinking some wine. That was fun, but he does have a girlfriend, so we talked about that, and the gist is, he loves her and he likes me as a friend. It turned out better than I could've expected. Then I went and met my girlfriend, India, at a party. That's where things get a little fuzzy. One sexy race car driver outfit (on me) and my girlfriend in a boxing outfit, we were looking so good a magazine was taking pictures of us all nigth. Really...that's all I remember.

Saturday: I re-couped all day, and the threw on the racecar driver outfit again, to hit up a house party and then to a club. Overall it was madness. Too many drinks, too many people, and overall a damn good time.

Sunday: I slept all day. My body was for sure in recovery mode.

Overall it was a blast Halloween weekend and I wouldn't have traded it for anything!

What did you all do?

Taking Some Time...

So this was my horoscope today: This morning you will meet some sort of challenge to the structure of your daily life, that is, your home life, intimate relations, routine daily contacts and so forth. All of us have hidden tensions that cause us to operate in ways that we do not understand. The effect of this influence is to bring these tensions to the surface. Thus you may feel ill at ease within yourself and have a bit more difficulty in getting along with others, particularly with men. Now several small areas of your life may simultaneously reach a crisis that forces you to pay more attention to what is happening. This is especially likely to happen with situations or persons that you have been taking for granted. You should take the time to correct little problems as they arise and give them the attention that they require.

Um...

Although I am not big on reading horoscopes, today I just felt like reading it, and for that to pop up, was a slap in the face.

I am having a harder time dealing with the crush than I should, but I understand he works here, so I have done nothing about it, I am just simply mistifyed.

I did however, tell the Italian we could no longer be friends or anything else along those lines. Which I think was a good thing, because honestly, I wouldn't want anyone dragging me along, and I felt I owed it to him to be honest.

So...I guess I am taking time for myself, the best I know how :)

Thoughts on how you spend time with you?

Mom's Say the Darndest Things...

Yesterday my mom came over to chat over coffee and although it was good to catch up, sometimesthat woman catches me off guard.



Like yesterday, when I was telling her about the ideal man for me, and she states, sorry babe, but I think you're in the wrong state.



Because I am so assertive and confident, she thinks I am going to attract 2 types of men (none of which will be good for me).



1. Someone like the Italian: too insecure and someone (as she put it) that is riding my coat tails. Someone that is lacking that self confidence and feels whole when they are with me because I exude that confidence.



or



2. Someone that is so aggressive they want to tame me, which as we all know, will never work.



She just re-affirmed what I already knew. I want someone that can go toe to toe with me in a fight, in terms of ambition, in terms of passion. Not someone that will hold me back, or try to tame my ways.



When or where I will find that, who knows.



I guess I already knew this, it just was an eye openeing experience to hear it out loud.

Men...

Well, the event went wonderfully! It was good to have family and friends support me in my passion.

With that said...it was not a disaster, thank God, but it did get a little awkward.

The crush showed up first, with 2 of our other co-workers. We chatted and I guess the bottom line is yes, we have a connection, but he has a girlfriend (long distance) and we work together, so I am assuming that is going no where. Not going to lie, it sucks. He is the one guy I have found that keeps me mentally on my toes and it seems we could have a good physical connection? Oh well.

Then dancer showed up, looking fabulous as always. I was a little upset though, because he was supposed to be there at 7 and showed up with his friend at 8. He almost missed my show, but he squeeked in just in time, so I got over it quickly. The only thing I will say is that, by nature, I am a mingler, especially with it being my show. So, I was walking around and up and about most of the time, and it seems to me, that he was a little dissapointed I didn't pay more attention to him. He didn't outright say that, but as of today I have not heard anything from him?

And last but not least, the Italian did show up. Prior to my show I got a text from him, wishing me luck, to which I responded, "are you not coming?" He writes back "if guys are going to be hitting on you, I don't t think I will come." So I wrote back, "well, I would ask if you do come, that you remember this is my night and I want no drama." There was no response, but he did show up. He barely made the show as well. I was annoyed that he wanted me to tell him to stay, when I didn't care either way. I thanked him for coming and showing support for me, but I wasn't going to give him an inch of hope that this relationship was going to continue, in any way.

It is kind of weird today, though, that I am sitting all by myself blogging. I have enjoyed the day and I have tried to make the most of it, but the truth is, it hurts the crush doesn't want to pursue something and I will be sad if dancer really is upset I didn't spend more time with him.

I know I need time alone, and I know I am being taught lessons, but it is still hard. I love to be around people, especially men, and it sucks that there are no more around ;-)